The Lonely Podium
We called Lacey's little cat tree by my den window, Lacey's Podium. On most evenings, I would remember to place a treat up there for the puss. She would find it on almost every night, and Lacey in her podium was often the first thing that I saw in the morning. If I were sleeping in my chair, I'd open my eyes, peek over, and there she would often be, looking back at me.
Last night, when I thought that I should place the usual treat on the podium, I soon realized that there was no need because Lacey will not ascend to her podium again. Nor will I see her in her bed under the desk, or her downstairs bed on the couch. The blanket on the bed where she would catch the afternoon sun on chilly days will gather her fur no more.
Meanwhile, Lacey could sometimes pick up some kibble and a treat, and I offered her plenty of treats. By Thursday, I had figured out how to get her to eat her wet food by dishing very small bits rather than the customary big lump.
On that final morning, Thursday, I spread a dozen small mouthfuls at intervals on her plate, and she was able to consume most of her breakfast, sometimes with AC nudging the bits into place for her. I remain pleased that we figured out how Lacey could eat a good last meal.
On the previous afternoon, Shauna had come by for what we expected to be a final visit. Then, on the fateful Thursday morning, Danica dropped in to bid farewell. She helped us by carrying the cat carrier to the car, but she helped us more by just being here.
We expected that Lacey would either have a tooth abscess or cancer. In either case we were not expecting her to come home. If it were an abscess, there is no way we would allow an already fragile, old puss to suffer through extractions and life afterward. If it were cancer there would be no remedy. It turned out that she had cancer in her jaw. The vet discovered that Lacey had already lost a tooth or two while the cancer was having its way.
We knew what had to be done, but we shed tears. When she was sedated, we shed more tears as she drifted into faraway land. We shed more tears as the final dose was administered, and Lacey was soon crossing that rainbow bridge. And now, I shed a few more tears as I write about her parting.
The litter box is being emptied. Her beds will be cleaned and put away. Her food will be passed on. But, the podium will remain in place for the time being, for we are not in a hurry to forget our Lacey.
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I will drop a few pictures. The first is Lacey just a few days after she came to live with us in February 2019.
Shortly afterward, we purchased her podium: April 2019.
Sue was kind with Lacey during the vet visit, stroking her and talking lovingly. In this final picture, we are both touching her comfortingly before the vet came in to examine her.
Sniff.
So sorry, AC. I went through very similar issue with my dear Marigold. I'll miss Lacey. You all gave her a lovely long life. And we can celebrate her.
ReplyDeleteOh so sad to hear you've lost your sweet furr-baby. Lacey has been visiting Caturday for so many times, she has felt like part of blog-family. You've written a lovely tribute to her, and the photos tell us how much she was adored by all. May your love towards Lacey be continued in your memories. I've been missing my dear cats also, as the colder nights come along.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for you and your family! Losing a beloved pet is so very harsh. You will be in my thoughts.
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I am so sorry to read this. Sweet Lacey. It's always hard to say goodbye. Going through old photographs and remembering happy times with her will help you through.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this. She was a dear part of your family. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry Miss Lacey has done "speaking" from her podium. She knew in her heart that you were taking care of her well over the years. That was so good of you to be with her at the end. I've ready stories of so many animals who are alone and scared at the time. So sad for you. I'm still trying to figure out why our beloved pets have to live such short lives. You'll probably hear some angelic meows and purrs from that podium. Our critters past seem to pop up at such unique times. Hugz, Linda in Kansas
ReplyDeleteOh, AC. My heart breaks for you.
ReplyDeleteOh, dear AC and Sue, I truly have tears in my eyes reading this. Her empty podium -- that did it for me, and I mourn with you. I've loved every Lacey post you've ever done. She was an amazing girl with a wonderful personality and had given so much love in her lifetime, equal, I'm certain, to that which she received. I'm devastated and so sorry for your loss. Yes, you do what is best for her (and don't we wish that we could do the same for the humans we love when there is little choice?), but that only makes it easier in the abstract. The gut still hurts as much, aches with the loss. I know that she had to be grateful that both of you were there with her for that final farewell. Thank you for sharing this with your blog friends and fellow cat lovers so that we, too, can share in her loss, if from afar.
ReplyDeleteDear John and Sue, I am so sorry to hear about Lacey. I have enjoyed the posts about your kitty who is a doppleganger to our Miss Kitty. Be kind to yourselves, She had a wonderful life.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to read this. It leaves a great hole in your heart to lose a beloved pet.
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry, John and Sue. I've loved the stories of Lacey. She was a beautiful and special girl.
ReplyDeleteF'n cancer (she says, not for the first time). You'll miss your furry girl.
ReplyDeleteOh, my heart just absolutely aches for you reading this beautiful tribute to Lacey. It's so clear how much comfort and companionship she brought into your home, especially seeing her on the "Lonely Podium" every morning.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you were able to figure out how to give her a good last meal and that she got those final loving visits from Shauna and Danica. Saying goodbye is always the hardest part, but you gave your old girl a gentle passing filled with love.
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AC and Sue, tears welling as I write this. So very sorry that you have lost your furry friend. I came to know Lacey through your Caturday posts. She will be so missed by you both. ((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear that. It's never easy when we lose a loved pet.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to you and Sue for the loss of your sweet, beautiful Lacey. Losing a much loved furry family member leaves quite a hole in the heart. Sending a big hug to you both.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. She has been much admired and much loved.
ReplyDeleteYour tribute to Lacey is tender and full of love, and her podium will remain a gentle reminder of the joy she brought into your days
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry to hear this. Grief is the price we pay for having our loving companions. Be gentle with yourselves as you mourn Lacey.
ReplyDeleteIt's tough to lose these friends. They are important in our lives.
ReplyDeleteSorry. I was start to tear up in 2nd paragraph.
ReplyDelete*sniffs back at ya*
ReplyDeleteSo sorry dear friend. In many ways losing a pet is one of the most painful parts of life. My heart goes out to you. My husband is just signed into hospice and is in a really nice Care Home being looked after because I could not do it by myself anymore. I do not disdain your loss at all, or compare it to the loss Potentially of my 40-year marriage.We were both lucky To have had companions Like these in our lives. And I feel lucky to know you. Carry on dear. And don't be afraid to love again. Aloha
ReplyDeleteSo sad... life is given and life is taken. We live in a cycle.
ReplyDeleteSending you many comforting vibes... lots.
(((( HUGS ))))
ReplyDeleteThat was a lovely memorial and tribute.
ReplyDeleteShe had a wonderful life with you, which is why she'll be missed. All the best.
oh, Lacey. I'm sorry you lost your sweet feline, what a fine girl she was. Very lucky to have you, I shed a few tears reading your nice tribute to her.
ReplyDeleteCrying tears for Lacey and her loving family. Meows are shed.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so sorry, I'm just catching up and saw this. How empty the house will be without her antics.
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My sincere condolences on your loss AC. Such a wonderful tribute.
ReplyDeleteShe was a loverly cat; sad news indeed. But I guess we should be grateful that we can assess a loved pet's health and decide, carefully, on a peaceful end. We all mourn when something beautiful has to end. Sending my best wishes to you all for peace and comfort.
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