Every now and then, I am reminded of my mortality.
In the summer when I turned 40, I remember walking by a graveyard, and it hit me that I was, quite possibly, halfway to being there. It was different than just knowing that I will die in the bye and bye because we know that all of the time, but there was a new realization of reality on that day.
It is not something that I dwell on, but on Christmas Day this year, I wondered if this one could possibly be my last one.
We were at the kids house, and for some reason, I felt unsteady every time that I got up. I would get up and take a beat to steady my unsteady self before proceeding on in my petty pace. That is when I thought the thought, not in a morbid way, but simply with a realization that it was within the realm of possibility that this could be my last Christmas.
I don’t know why I was feeling unsteady on the morning. I do get up and down all of the time without experiencing that feeling, save every now and then at night, as I have posted here twice this year.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am far from predicting my departure. I do think the chances of my being here are very good. In point of fact, I expect to see next Christmas, but there was just a dawning on that day that went beyond the usual background knowledge that we all have of our mortality. It was a momentary realization and not a doomsday prediction.
Happy New Year




















